Every weekend I say the same thing.  I can't believe how quickly it goes. One minute its Friday the next minute it is already Sunday. I hate Sundays just because I hate Mondays, but who doesn't? Anyway I have come to the conclusion that I need to stop complaining and just do. My parents had come over yesterday and we were just talking and they made me realize I really don't have it bad. Everyone goes through shit. Instead of complaining I need to realize all the good things I do have and how much of my life is left that I can still accomplish all the great things that I want too.

I've always wanted to write obviously I have said this many times in my previous blogs and because my job doesn't center around writing I can just find a bunch of freelancing jobs so I can still do what I love most. Write. Writing will always be a passion whether or not it becomes a full-time job for me. I still remember the stupid dinky story I wrote when I was probably about nine. It was called "My crazy loca life" considering loca is crazy I don't really know why I wrote both, but then again I was only nine. I've always known I wanted to write I get my writing skills from  my mom who is an extremely talented writer. At least she passed that down to me because she also passed down the lovely migraines I get every single day. Thanks mom! I didn't really confirm what I wanted to be until my second year of college when I realized writing was my dream and also something I am really good at. At least if I am freelancing my writing will get out there and maybe I can help someone with my writing. It is a passion of mine and will never give up on it.

Also I realized with the help of my family that no matter how hurt I am with the guy that hurt me if I keep complaining about it I will never get over him. As hard as it is it isn't even worth it anymore because we obviously won't ever be together and he doesn't deserve all the thought I put into him. And if I don't get over him I will never be able to put myself out there again, which I guess I need to do eventually since I do want to get married one day. I always have a guard up and probably will for awhile, but I think it is time to just try to let go and move on then thinking of the what ifs. That only makes it harder for me.

I have so much going for me so why let one guy get in the way of my happiness especially when it isn't deserved. I have goals in my life and I have to strive for them as much as I can even if I fail at least I know I tried.

Just like my favorite quote says "The only people who never fail are those who never try," Ilka Chase
This has been my favorite quote since 8th grade when I walked into my English Class. I remember when I got home from the first day of school I had told my mom about it and what it meant to me and she put this quote in a frame for me, and now it hangs up in my office so anytime I feel down or not motivated I look at it. This quote has left such an everlasting impression on me and everyone should live by it. If you don't try you don't fail, but at least if you try and fail at least you know you tried, and the next time you may become successful. 


That is all for today :)