Do you know what the worse part about getting over someone is? When you actually think you are finally doing it then you smell something that reminds you of them, watch a show that reminds you of them, a song, or even just a slight moment, and once that moment happens all you do is think about them over and over. That is the one thing I HATE most about trying to get over someone.Especially knowing how many years I spent thinking about him to now have to cut out every thought and memory out because even keeping the slightest memory in my mind will make me miss him and want to see him again even knowing he is the worse possible person for me. Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward some time so I could rush through the whole getting over process and heartbreak I feel sometimes. Especially the pain of seeing him for the last time and how it all just fell apart worse then it already fallen apart. He obviously wasn't a good guy (for me anyway) and here I am heartbroken and I guarantee 1000% he never even gave a second thought since he last saw me. Why would he anyway? I probably just wasn't good enough for him, which sucks because no matter what he did or what happened I always thought he was good enough for me.

At this point now I know he wasn't And I would never give it a second thought being with him for many reasons I am not even going to begin with. All that matters to me is in the end is that he ends up happy and so do I. Luckily for me I just keep giving myself more distractions so a minute I am alone another distraction will come up. Minus the fact that I am at work and have finished all my work and I had that moment that just brought memories back that I wish I could stuff away and never think about again.

Maybe time will go quickly and before I know it it'll be the summer and he will be all just the distant memory of another lesson in my life.