Its weird when you  are younger you have all these dreams for yourself to become an actor, model, dancer, singer etc all things that are really out of reach unless you really have the talent or the connections. Especially today you need all the connections you can get. The economy is obviously not in great shape now a days and it is extremely hard to get a job especially one you've always dreamed of. Many friends I know are taking what they can get with an exception of a few people I know that actually got the job they have always wanted. It is weird though as you go to school you are taught to do well in high school to go to a good college to graduate and get a good job, but things are so different. If I hadn't gotten the great job that I have now who knows where I would be working or what I would be doing.

I still have my dream of becoming an editor of a magazine one day or having my own column in a magazine even a newspaper, but seeing how newspapers are becoming less and less available I figure by the time I can make that dream happen newspapers may no longer be around. Hopefully magazines won't ever go out of style because I simply do not want to read a magazine on the computer. I don't know about all of you, but I can only read so much on the computer and to have to go through 160 pages of a magazine isn't really fun. I'm hoping I can find somewhere I can freelance on either a daily basis, weekly basis or even monthly basis at this point so I can eventually reach my dream of becoming an editor or having my own column. I used to have this whole plan in my head and I really thought I'd get there. Obviously now I don't think that not because I don't think I can do it, but because so much has changed and I don't know if that is the direction I would want to go in. I used to have this plan in my head that I would move to the city get a job at Cosmopolitan and eventually go up on the ladder and have my own column or go off to another magazine and have my own column or become editor. Who was I kidding? Obviously myself. There are so many other writers out there especially ones that can write a whole lot better then I can, and those are the ones that will climb the ladder further then I ever will.

 Luckily for me I landed a great job that many people my age can't say. I still have those hopes though that I can somehow live out my dream. Maybe not move to the city because I've realized that is not for me, but maybe everything else will be possible. Who knows? I know I am still young and have a whole life to live, but when there is always someone that is going to be better then me how do I even get myself to where I want to be? Guess I'll find out sooner or later.